I love it when days are just... sort of meant for you!

Church today was just fantastic. I love fast and testimony meetings... it's such a great opportunity to hear the things that people have to say. It's not a group of people focused on one topic, or even given a prepared lesson. People just get to talk from their hearts, about whatever it is they feel like sharing. I know that not everyone is comfortable with getting up in front of a group of people and just sharing themselves like that, so I'm so grateful for those who do.

In Relief Society, our new RS president gave a little lesson, and that's when I started to feel like what was being talked about was really for me. One thing she asked was what markers we have for our lives, and the bishop's wife, sitting next to me, mentioned our patriarchal blessing. That was when things really started to click for me. I thought about my own patriarchal blessing, and about how I was way overdue for sitting down and reading it. I started to think about the parts in it that I knew well enough, and how it tied in to a conversation I had with my mom yesterday.

I'm not too far from graduating with my BA. Yesterday, I was going over everything, trying to figure out what to do with my life. Now, ideally, I would like to be an educated wife and mother. If that was my life, if I went through all this schooling and never applied it to a career because I was helping a husband to raise a family, I would not have a single problem with that. However, seeing as I don't even have a date for Friday night, I can't be twiddling my thumbs and just hope that happens. So, while I've been preparing myself for that as much as I can, I've got to be preparing myself for careers, too.

For the past couple of years, I've been moving forward with plans of being a Child Life Specialist. That would require me getting my BA, and then completing training for it. However, recently, I've started to wonder if I wanted to go to grad school so I can be a counselor? If I do, do I want to wait a while and work? Is that what I want to do at all? Do I want to teach instead? What will happen between now and the time I graduate... what other situations, relationships, etc. might come up that I will work into the equation? There are just SO many questions... being a grown-up is tough!!

Then in RS, the testimonies that were shared by both our new RS president and our recently released one, acted as a deep breath of fresh air to me. They both talked about trusting God, and trusting His timing. About believing that He knows what is best for you, and that He wants those best things even more than we do. He will lead us to where we are meant to go, and He will prepare us to be there. Even through small, seemingly unimportant things, He is helping us to be ready, in His kind, knowing, and loving way.

It's such a relief and a blessing to hear these lessons and to have this knowledge.  It's not like I've been set securely on one path, or have had God tell me "This is what's going to happen, and this is what you need to do".  And I know, like with the marriage and family I hope for, just because I need to have patience in God, it doesn't mean that I get to sit and twiddle my thumbs.  I need to work on keeping myself prepared for anything that comes.  I need to make sure I'm at a place in my life, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, that I can hear the promptings when they come.  I'll make sure I thrive where I stand, and am ready to move and act whenever I am called to.